And in those last ten days, I thought about posting, even opened up a new post and stared at the screen for sometimes hours (between other things of course), but I just haven't been able to bring myself to write.
For starters, I had no idea where to start, what to write about. I stared at the screen and nothing came to mind.
The other, probably more prominent reason, is that I've been walking through life only half awake. I feel like all I want to do is sleep all the time. Everything feels hard. Cooking dinner feels hard. Putting up our Christmas tree felt hard. And writing a post just seemed too hard. Every time I went to write, I stared at this screen and almost cried. If I can't even come up with the energy to do the thing I love most, how am I going to get through...life?
So I did what any normal person would do: I called my doctor. A prick in the arm and vial full of blood later and I've got myself low T3 thyroid hormone uptake. Another visit to the doc's office and I've got a possible referral to a specialist, potentially more pricks in the arm (I hate those!!) and still no answers as to why I've been so tired.
That being said, life goes on and there's still fun to be had in the world, so while it took me ten days to find the energy to write on my own, when there are other people involved, there aren't many other options besides sucking it up and putting on a pretty face.
Fortunately, I was able to find a small amount of extra energy at the end of the week and even managed to bake three different types of cupcakes for our annual holiday party at work.
Gingerbread with eggnog frosting, Maple walnut, and Peppermint hot chocolate. They were quite the hit!
And the whole evening was a lot of fun. Despite a beyond-crazy day wrapping 40 prizes for our casino-themed party as well as a gift for every employee, rebaking chocolate cupcakes (I tried a new recipe and it turned out SOOOO dry!), frosting all the cupcakes, decorating the room where the party was held, and squeezing in six sporadic hours of work, I had an amazing time and didn't once count down the hours until my bed and I met again.
We also decided this year that we would invite more than just our employees to the party. We invited everyone who was important to us, to our family, and we ended up with a room full of people we love and care about. I don't think it could have been a better evening.
My brother, Matt, teaching my little nephew to play poker.
Our employee's daughter playing with her winnings.
Christie married Jim and I. Her husband, Nic, is to her left and our employee, Mark is to her right.
My sister-in-law's camera had all the photos of me and Jim on it. Obviously, I can't take photos of myself so well. I'll have to post a few of those when I get them from her.
But the party really was the perfect holiday celelbration. Filled with good food, amazing friends and family and all the laughter you could ask for! I hope everyone's holiday season is exactly that!