Yesterday I posted about the foods I miss since I can't eat corn or wheat. Today, I figured I'd balance it out by sharing with you the positive "side effects" the change has had.
1. I get ideas
I used to get these fabulous ideas for things I could do: creative birthday gifts, DIY projects around the house, new recipes, get togethers with friends, weekend plans. I think eventually my brain got tired of these ideas being rejected that it just stopped having them. I used to feel so guilty when I would come up with such a cool idea and then not have the energy to go through with it. I am finally starting to get these ideas back...and I'm doing them!
2. My apartment gets clean
I won't say that it IS clean because I've been in sort of a slump. The pain from my knee kept me awake at night for a whole week. Pair that with last weekend's adventure and I've been feeling less than motivated. I know, however, that it is temporary and will pass (that in itself is an amazing feeling!). And probably, with any luck, by this afternoon, our apartment will at least feel clean again.
3. I want to wear high heels
I have so many pairs of heels that I love. And in the past few years, it's just seemed like such a pain, so much more effort than I could afford to wear them....now I just need my dang knee to finish healing.
[caption id="attachment_933" align="aligncenter" width="572"] My fabulous wedding shoes may see the outside of their box again![/caption]
4. I've started writing again
I think I mentioned this one before. I stopped working on my large writing project just after we got engaged. I told myself I'd be too busy planning our wedding, but beyond that there was a little nagging feeling that I just didn't have the energy to produce anything good. And that's partly my own self-loathing speaking (fueled by a number of rejections of my first novel... "Can I really do this?!"), but somehow, I've found the courage and energy to pound out some words and have started a fresh draft of my current project. Wish me luck.
5. I want to redecorate
I won't claim to be the world's most amazing decorator. Hell, I won't claim to be one ounce of good at it at all, but ever since I was a kid, I've had this amazingly keen desire to redecorate, rearrange rooms every few months or so. I was actually a little hesitant to move into my first apartment after college because my bedroom was too small to move the furniture around. Could I really live like that? Well, I managed. And again, our room is too small to do much moving around. But for a while there, I had no desire to make changes at all, and while I still can't move the furniture, I have this desire to freshen up the decor and find myself often cruising House Beautiful and numerous home decor blogs in my free time.
6. I want to be my best self
And I feel motivated to make the changes necessary. Not major changes. Just little things like making time for exercise every day (and not just when I already have time for it). Taking time for MYSELF every day...to read, to write, to watch a television show. And sticking with my new diet...lifestyle really...because that's what makes all of the items on this list happen.
Prior to finding out about these allergies, I wasn't sure I'd ever be able to feel "normal" again. I was sure there was a good possibility I would just be tired forever, unable to muster the energy to get through every day. The "side effects" have been amazing. Now I believe there's a good possibility I may actually find a bit of contentment in my life, a bit of happiness that lingers rather than falling away as soon as it arrives.
Have you ever been so discouraged by something you can't control that it feels like it may never go away? How did you cope with that?